25.10.11

Bethany K. Mooney will you please leave now!

Sometimes, I wonder if I was truly meant to be born for such a horrible week. I have a lot of horrible weeks, which have come to the same conclusion.

Me.

I wish there was an automatic button which erases all traces of Bethany G.B. Selfishness would be a thing of the past - dumb mistakes and horrible days would be gone (without Bethany G.B. there are no horrible days.)

*reality* So, I'm stuck with myself. Don't get me wrong - I don't dislike myself - I just don't like myself when myself likes me.

Yeah, I knew you needed a translation.

In short, I want a relationship with God, but myself hinders it sometimes. I cannot stand when I bark my head off at someone or waste an entire day doing nothing but something for myself and ignoring the toddler asking to be pushed in the swing.

I especially want to be an encourager. My mission field right now is my family. I want to encourager my siblings and parents and be super sister (ha ha, I can dream, can't I?) but it all seems impossible because of:

Me.

Your thoughts?

3 comments

  1. :) It's so easy to be focusing on myself, instead of looking at the needs of our family members or friends.

    Isn't it wonderful that He is here, waiting with overflowing grace...

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  2. Sounds really familiar! Seems like I'm always saying, "I am SO sick of my SELF". What my Mom always tells me when I come to her with the old self problem is "repent and believe". Ask God's forgiveness, and believe that He can change you.

    Jude 1:24 Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy.


    I really appreciate you posting this. It's really encouraging to hear someone talking about their walk with God and how they want to get closer to God.

    Keep pressing on,
    Carli

    P.S. I'm following now. Check out my blog--reflectionsaphotographyblog.blogspot.com

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  3. I know exactly how you feel Bethanty. We have to realize that while Satan may be our biggest battle in life, our self comes to a close second, if not equal. We have to fight against our sinful selves and what we want to do. Even the godliest and selfless of Christians, I'm sure, have to deal with nagging selfish thoughts from time to time. Our self and what we want will always be a struggle.

    Great thoughts...I enjoyed reading. :)

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