I'm not going to be able to handle this.

One week. And she was gone to camp for family week. I handled it well, considering I only missed her every evening when we're normally the most hyper.

Next week. And she was gone to camp for junior week counseling a bunch of young girls. It's been two days, and I've been practically in tears because I miss our sister talks and giggling until 2:00 a.m. She won't be back until Friday. Baking cookies brought no relief from the empty throb in my sisterly heart.

This is coming from a sister who's never not seen her sister for more than a week. And now, the sister is going off to college next month (in which the tears flow) and it will be a couple a weeks. A couple of months. Before big sister steps into the Bergmann household.

Did I mention I'm probably going to be hysterical?

So. I'm trying to be brave and be the older sister now (so much pressure from those toddlers who insist you do everything with them!) and doing the leftovers and dishes by myself, with no sister to argue other who gets what. There's no complaints about stealing each other's clothes - no one I can say good morning to, or get my hugs from.

*insert dramatic sigh*

There's this sort of sisterly loving anger when it comes to big sisters going off to college. The type of I'm-going-to-lovingly-punch-you-in-the-nose-for-leaving-me-here-as-the-new-big-sister anger. Certain big sisters are going to get a dose of it.

Miss and love you Bayleaf.

P.s. Sorry for lack of posts - but please get used to it as I juggle Farmer's Market booths, bible studies, and the family trip to Colorado!


  1. Bailey's all grown up and going to college? Wow. If I had a Bailey, I would be an upset Bethany, too. And vice versa.

    Okay, that was worded wonky. Can you make sense of it?

    Coincidentally, I know how you feel. Only I'm the one moving away to the university and leaving my twin behind. There are going to be tears and Skyping and big bowls of "I'm m-m-missing m-m-y-yy s-s-sister" ice-cream in our future, believe me.

    Cute picture of you two. I'll say a prayer for y'all. :) *hugs*

  2. I'm going to miss Bailey when she leaves...if it's possible, I think I might already!

    I love you girls! (Just give me a call if you get extremely lonesome..I'm not Bailey, but I can listen!)

    Love ya!

  3. I know Bailey is gonna miss you lots too, Bethany. *hugs*

  4. Ok-Let's just not think about this right now. LOL ! Because soon we'll both be mourning together...

    Love you !

  5. awee. I'd be upset too. Bailey sounds like a super big sis. I know you'll miss her, but it's good you two are so close. :)


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